Siddhartha #2

Govinda starts the conversation by writing “Hey, Cabel how is life without Siddhartha for you going?”
Cabel replies “I am getting used to it, why you ask?”
“Well Siddhartha has left me so I was wondering how you coped with it when he left you?”
“I just said it is life and tried to live my own life. Although just to let you know this was predictable because you have always been a step behind Siddhartha. For he excelled you in learning and he even wanted to keep learning more then you have.”
Govinda writes while crying “Why did I choose to follow Gotama?”
“I do not know my friend but ‘do not forget Govinda that you now belong to the Buddha’s holy men.’ (Hesse, 30)”
“Thank you Cabel for showing that I truly need to leave Siddhartha once and for all because I belong to Gotama’s word”
“Govinda I have to go but if you need any help later on just write and I will try to help you”
“Farewell, Cabel”

From here I know Govinda is going to write back because Siddhartha and he were the best of friends. Through writing to one another I can tell Govinda is in a lot of pain for he realizes that Siddhartha was lost in this decision. I don’t know if he really regrets his decision but it brought him pain. What will Govinda do? I feel that Govinda will stay strong like he has his entire life and follow the ways of Gotama. I feel sorry for him because I know how it feels to lose Siddhartha. Siddhartha I know for sure will be fine and he will find his own unique way to search for himself. How he searches for Self I have no idea.